1. Receiving His comfort and love to begin to know how deeply surrounded I am by His presence. By being able to truly sit in His presence and receive I have been able to fully understand and truly believe who He says I am through Christ. 2. Learning to reflect on His goodness. While outward … More What the Holy Spirit has been teaching me:
We always see pregnancy announcements and gender reveals but how often do we see the people struggling to get pregnant? We celebrate the miracle of life at the same time people all around us are suffering, in silence usually. Don’t get me wrong babies ARE a miracle; as someone who deals with infertility there is … More The Journey of Infertility
Trying to get pregnant can start off as a fun exciting adventure. 1 out of 3 women will get pregnant the first month trying (or not trying even) and more than 8 out of 10 women will conceive within one year. Then there are women like me and maybe you too. It starts off hopeful. … More One Line Doesn’t Define You
I love to take notes as I listen to sermons. I feel like I can go back again and again and reread things that spoke to me. So I thought I would share some. I am part of elevation online and go to northgate church locally. As I navigate the storm I am currently in … More Some of my notes from church from the past month.
Dear Journey, Before I got pregnant with you I went through a lot of suffering. It was the darkest time of my life. I had lost four pregnancies before I got pregnant with you just that year. On October 17, 2017 I had a d&c. I should’ve been 10 weeks pregnant but my baby had … More Dear Journey
Your God assignment is waiting for you. God is just waiting for you to show up. Recently I had been called to change my blog from mainly a vegan based lifestyle blog to faith based. I ignored this for a little time and told myself that can’t be right. I hadn’t even been utilizing my … More God is waiting for you to show up
2 Chronicles 20:17 “You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.” Sometimes we face battles that … More 2 Chronicles 20:17
Being stuck with infertility blows. It is beyond frustrating that it’s not something that will just go away either. I seemed to convince myself it would just be okay after I had Journey. I don’t know why but it’s what I told myself. This is not something I would want to have or something I … More Infertility Sucks
The LORD is near the brokenhearted; He saves those crushed in spirit. I feel this so deep within myself. I found myself in a very dark place as I was battling recurring miscarriage and infertility a couple years ago. Following Buddhist philosophy was no longer enough for me as I was suffering with a great … More Psalm 34:18
Having my rainbow baby after having four miscarriages consecutively has healed so much of my heart but has not erased the memories and pain. 2017 was the worst year of my life. I am such a trusting and loving person that each time I found out I was pregnant I still had hope … More The inner ramblings of my mind surrounding loss and my rainbow.