2 Chronicles 20:17
“You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.”
Sometimes we face battles that are too big and they aren’t meant for us to fight them on our own. If it’s too big we gotta give it back to God. Give it all back to Him and let Him provide for us and work it out. When we are afraid living in fear, anger can take over; we can be overwhelmed with stress trying to face hardships on our own and it’s going to be impossible. I am guilty of this! When we want something so bad and are facing a huge battle in the way of it it has a way of consuming us. I am guilty to this fault 100%. Now when we are weak, vulnerable and afraid the enemy has a way to increase that fear and doubt. What ends up happening is we spend all that time worrying and trying to fight a battle that we have no control over when we should have spent that time worshiping. When we are standing in God’s love and trusting in Him He will not fail us!
When we are facing battles that feel totally overwhelming and are breaking us down we need to remind ourselves of what God has already done for us. Thank God for what He has given us and what He has provided us with. I was feeling incredibly angry today. Admittedly I have been in a very bad place the past few weeks. This battle of infertility has got me so down I have been consumed with anxiety and fear. Every day I pray thanking God for what I have but I think momentarily I felt angry at God. I felt angry that I am in this again. Angry that He is allowing this again. And then I was reminded that HE is not doing anything to me. HE is not causing me to suffer. But He is there to lead me through this battle again. I just haven’t surrendered it to Him. God has already walked me out of this darkness before and He will do it again. He has already shown me his love and grace and He will continue to do so. Thank you Jesus for helping me realize this again.
God is always there for us. He is always ready to fight for us, to carry the weight we are burdened by. We just have to give it to Him. In the face of the enemy choose to worship, choose to pray God and watch the fear fall away from you. Today I am reminded of who my Father is and He is great and He has got my back. And now I will wait and watch Him deliver like He has already done for me before.
This battle is not mine, it’s God’s.