Day three of consciously choosing to eat healthy. Y’all the last two years have been so hard on my body. Getting pregnant 5 times, miscarrying 4. Stopping my raw vegan (always vegan tho) diet to purposefully gain weight (which included eating way more fat which I did as a choice to up my BMI) on … More Time to begin.
Having my rainbow baby after having four miscarriages consecutively has healed so much of my heart but has not erased the memories and pain. 2017 was the worst year of my life. I am such a trusting and loving person that each time I found out I was pregnant I still had hope … More The inner ramblings of my mind surrounding loss and my rainbow.
I’ve had 5 miscarriages. 4 in 2017. It was the worst time of my life. It’s what brought me back to God. For years before I had abandoned God and followed Buddhist philosophy. Turns out I only thought I turned my back on God, he was always there patiently waiting for me to return. … More An Answered Prayer
Life can throw you so much darkness and pain. It can be so overwhelming. It will feel like at times that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. This year I have experienced more joy, heartbreak, hope, hopelessness, love and pain all mashed together. It was so confusing and extremely difficult to … More Loss does not define you
It’s so crazy to think about time. It can feel so slow yet so fast. For example, Lunabella is 21 months. The time has flown by so quick! I can remember her birth as if it was just yesterday and here she is now almost 2. At the same time, I’ve been trying for a … More Random Thoughts
After going through my 4th miscarriage I felt like I had a nervous breakdown. I was completely shattered and my soul was in so much pain. After feeling so low and trapped in the dark I made a choice to do things to pull myself out. I decided to try reiki. Now I have never … More My First Reiki Experience
I would like to share a little bit about my journey to having another baby. We started trying for another baby when her daughter was only 15 days old. I really thought I was going to be like one of those people that have two babies one year apart that’s what I really wanted. I … More A peak into my TTC journey
This won’t be raw food or vegan related. I haven’t felt motivated to write because pain has consumed me. I sit here waiting at the hospital lab to have my blood test confirm what I already know. I wonder if I somehow did something in my life to deserve this pain. I don’t understand. I’m … More Heartbreak & Loss
So yesterday a very unhappy, mean lady was commenting on one of my photos basically saying I’m a liar and fraud. She claimed that I say my weight and looks are a result of my high carb low fat diet but she says I’m a liar and photoshop my photos. Honestly I was not sure … More Ugliness vs Self Love
Today is a sad day. Tilikum has died. I am happy he is no longer suffering in a tiny cement pool but absolutely devastated that he has spent nearly his whole life (short life) in such an unnatural habitat. We must be the change we wish to see in the world. Please do not support … More Voice for the voiceless