Dear Journey

Dear Journey, Before I got pregnant with you I went through a lot of suffering. It was the darkest time of my life. I had lost four pregnancies before I got pregnant with you just that year. On October 17, 2017 I had a d&c. I should’ve been 10 weeks pregnant but my baby had … More Dear Journey

2 Chronicles 20:17

2 Chronicles 20:17 “You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.” Sometimes we face battles that … More 2 Chronicles 20:17

Infertility Sucks

Being stuck with infertility blows. It is beyond frustrating that it’s not something that will just go away either. I seemed to convince myself it would just be okay after I had Journey. I don’t know why but it’s what I told myself. This is not something I would want to have or something I … More Infertility Sucks

Psalm 34:18

The LORD is near the brokenhearted; He saves those crushed in spirit. I feel this so deep within myself. I found myself in a very dark place as I was battling recurring miscarriage and infertility a couple years ago. Following Buddhist philosophy was no longer enough for me as I was suffering with a great … More Psalm 34:18

An Answered Prayer

  I’ve had 5 miscarriages. 4 in 2017. It was the worst time of my life. It’s what brought me back to God. For years before I had abandoned God and followed Buddhist philosophy. Turns out I only thought I turned my back on God, he was always there patiently waiting for me to return.  … More An Answered Prayer

Random Thoughts

It’s so crazy to think about time. It can feel so slow yet so fast. For example, Lunabella is 21 months. The time has flown by so quick! I can remember her birth as if it was just yesterday and here she is now almost 2. At the same time, I’ve been trying for a … More Random Thoughts