Dear Journey, Before I got pregnant with you I went through a lot of suffering. It was the darkest time of my life. I had lost four pregnancies before I got pregnant with you just that year. On October 17, 2017 I had a d&c. I should’ve been 10 weeks pregnant but my baby had … More Dear Journey
Being stuck with infertility blows. It is beyond frustrating that it’s not something that will just go away either. I seemed to convince myself it would just be okay after I had Journey. I don’t know why but it’s what I told myself. This is not something I would want to have or something I … More Infertility Sucks
Having my rainbow baby after having four miscarriages consecutively has healed so much of my heart but has not erased the memories and pain. 2017 was the worst year of my life. I am such a trusting and loving person that each time I found out I was pregnant I still had hope … More The inner ramblings of my mind surrounding loss and my rainbow.
Life can throw you so much darkness and pain. It can be so overwhelming. It will feel like at times that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. This year I have experienced more joy, heartbreak, hope, hopelessness, love and pain all mashed together. It was so confusing and extremely difficult to … More Loss does not define you
This won’t be raw food or vegan related. I haven’t felt motivated to write because pain has consumed me. I sit here waiting at the hospital lab to have my blood test confirm what I already know. I wonder if I somehow did something in my life to deserve this pain. I don’t understand. I’m … More Heartbreak & Loss